I try to avoid using the phrase “makes me feel,” because people and events don’t make you feel anything. I prefer “helps me feel” or “allows me to feel.” The use of the phrase “touches my heart” by people reacting to my love songs helps me feel good. But not for the first time, I find the words of others express feelings I have which I have been unable to find the words for. Firesign Theater member and voice actor Phil Proctor’s regular newsletter Planet Proctor is worth subscribing to. In a recent issue, he quoted David Ackert of the LA Times discussing acting. I reprint it here, because it is how I feel about having written the words to two songs that touched several people’s hearts.
He was talking about actors, but I think it is true of writers too: they are “willing to give their entire lives to a moment - to that line, that laugh, that gesture, or that interpretation that will stir the audience's soul. Actors are beings who have tasted life's nectar in that crystal moment when they poured out their creative spirit and touched another's heart. In that instant, they were as close to magic, God, and perfection as anyone could ever be. And in their own hearts, they know that to dedicate oneself to that moment is worth a thousand lifetimes.”
I am astounded to have “tasted life's nectar in that crystal moment” at my age, but if my heart-felt words have touched your heart, I am happy about what I did for you and grateful for what you did for me. I’ve been close to magic, God and perfection, and it is quite a feeling.
Or, to put it another way, as I read recently on Angel’s Daily Message: “To be the active expression of God’s Good through word or action or prayer or creativity, to even one other person, one other idea of Life thought up by God, is to Be exactly what you need to Be.”
I know I have done that for at least one person with the musical settings I commissioned for my love poems, so I am exactly what I need to be.
And, Mahatma Gandhi probably once said, “Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.” As it happens, I am in that place, and I believe I have achieved happiness.